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| Today at 2:15 my group had a Director's Prep meeting with Andrew Syder, our filmmaking teacher. We needed to present storyboards, line scripts, shot lists, a color palette, and tone clips (from movies that we might be channeling). Getting ready for it was A BITCH. I was up until 6am this morning working on my damn storyboard. It doesn't sound bad, but translating a script into something visual is not easy. I woke up at 10:45 (Hannah had to get me out of bed. I told her to in a note in our bathroom. If I was still sleeping by then, it meant I slept through my alarm). From then until 2, I worked constantly on the rest of it. I found out that we also needed a tone clip for whoever's movie we're DP for. So, it was all kinds of stressful.
How the meeting actually went, however, was a whole lot more pleasant. Andrew is a young guy (34?) and he made the whole thing really...chill. There were only five of us there, but a few people came in a little late and it was no big deal. He had all sorts of food set out for us. He's vegan so there was hummus, red peppers, strawberries, chips, etc. - btw, he had kiwi berries, WHICH ARE AWESOME. I didn't know they existed until this afternoon. They look like grapes, but the inside is kiwi and they're not complicated to eat like kiwi's can be. I loved them. Anyway, we sat and chatted for a while before we started and the environment was just really comfortable. He wanted to see that we were prepared, but the purpose was to actually help each other on our production work rather than to have him grade us on it. We were there until 6, but we had a few breaks and we were just hanging out for parts of it. So, basically, I was flipping my shit for no reason. I mean, I needed all of the stuff I got together, but I didn't need to stress so much.
Also, I put out a call for actors and extras through facebook and now I may have too many people who want to act in my movie. I'll need extras so it'll be cool. It's just strange that this flood of support is a relief as well as a bit of a complication. Before Wednesday (which isn't when I'm shooting, but it is when others in my group start shooting and that means I won't really have free time), I have to locate a bathroom to shoot in - looking for one on campus that could pass for the bathroom of Momo's, the pizza place that my movie is set in, talk to the police about making an appearance, solidify locations and actors, and get my shots down. There's a lot to do, but I think it's doable. It better be.
and finally, it's Parents' Weekend so we have a full house. It's fun. My parents are taking my room (and Gaby's hers) and we're sleeping in the living room. I'm housing my parents as house guests...it's strange and kind of exciting. | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment   |
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| I JUST FINISHED THE BASIC EDITING FOR THE MOVIE I'M MAKING THAT IS DUE TOMORROW. FUCK YES.
I have so much more to do tonight, for the movie and otherwise, but at least the shots fit together. Oh my god. This is my first movie and it is scaaary. Anyway, I have to go shopping and get back to my dorm with Gaby and Carolina so we can do the rest of thew things on our long to-do lists. It's going to be a long night. More on everything later. I just wanted to share my enormous sigh of relief on livejournal. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| I figured an update was in order. Clementine is going to liiiive! She apparently ate lots of thread because she's still working on getting it all out - I'll spare you the details - but she's getting there and she's eating again. So, that's awesome.
My Winter Break is almost over. That kind of sucks. I've really enjoyed being home. I like spending time with my family and being able to see my friends. I love being at the beach, eating Moe's with Ian, and sitting in Barnes & Noble. I love my life in Tallahassee, but there's much less driving around. Everything I really need is on campus and parking is horrific. I think I miss that. Well, hopefully I'll get a job - at the Learning Express there if I can - and I'll have a place to regularly drive to. I know that once I'm settled back in, I'll be happy to be back, but for now and in transit, I'm not really going to be. So, it's not too bad. My last few days will be good. Tomorrow I'm going on a date, I guess, with Jaxson in the afternoon. We've been meaning to hang out, but have had very conflicting schedules with traveling and things. After that, I'm going with the crew to pick up Leah and Rose from the airport (they've been in Utah, skiing with their family) and then we're going to have a second New Year's party.
Now, I'm going to go watch Superbad with my parents, who haven't seen it. I think my dad is going to love it. I'll update about New Years and break later. OH, and I am totally obsessed with How I Met Your Mother. I have watched seasons 1-3 constantly to catch up for the new episodes. I'm almost done and it's only been like two weeks. I kind of love this feeling. I'm not dangerously or uncontrollably obsessed, but I'm into it enough to just make me happy upon thinking about it. Ok, I'm done. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| Everything is pretty chill. Life feels really cozy right now. I've only been to one real party here, but I do enough of that when I go to Orlando. Every night is pretty much a sleepover party with Gaby (obviously) and Carolina - who technically lives three floors down, but spends most of her time in our room. We watch lots of movies and we recently finished watching all of Pushing Daisies. That's a whole other thing right now. I am slightly obsessed with that show and I've managed to get Gaby, Hannah, and Carolina hooked, too. Since I have class tonight when it airs, we're going to buy some pies and watch it tomorrow online. It's such a good show! Plus, I'm in love with Ned and I have a little girl crush on Chuck and I find Emerson and Olive hilarious. Anyway, I'm pretty terrified that it's going to get canceled, but I think I've done all I can do.
The deadline for my film application is coming up (December 1st). I have to edit my "statement of intent", maybe edit my resume, make sure my recommendations come through, and get my transcripts, but I feel like I'm done with the hard parts. I've had time to work on it since my two 1-credit classes and my stupid computer class ended. I only have three classes now (Planetary Geology, Intro to Film, and African-American Lit). Life is good.
I'm learning guitar! Carolina brought her guitar up to our room and showed me some chords. I've been practicing on my own a lot. It's something I've wanted to do forever, but never actually started. I have an electric guitar that I bought years ago at home. I'm going to stick to acoustic for now though. I also brought up my grandpa's old acoustic. I've been sewing a fair amount, too. I now have a dress and two jackets that have been sewn smaller so that I can actually wear them. Not much else is new. I'm really excited to go home for Thanksgiving, but that's almost just a teaser for Winter Break. Still, I get to see Blair! That's exciting. I feel like seeing Blair is the thing that will actually make me feel satisfied about seeing my friends and getting back together. My first semester in college is so close to being over. Crazy.
Edit: Whoa, I just realized how long it's been since I edited this thing. I guess it's not too big, but Gaby and I put our beds together as bunk beds a while back. It was about 2 in the morning and we did it using markers, pliers, and duct tape. It's solid and hasn't killed us yet. I also got my dad to approve it when my family came for parents' weekend. Ian fit in as if he's lived here the whole time. I'm excited for him to be here next year. Oh, and next year, I'm getting an apartment with Gaby, Hannah, and Carolina. We're pretty excited. Our dorm is kind of like an apartment now since we moved the beds. We have a living room space with the enormous bean bag chair from my room (it's awesome), a tv, and hopefully a futon if anyone on Craig's list ever gets back to us. So, now, that's really it. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Life is good here in Tallahassee. I like it here more and more. Now that I'm in Northern Florida, I'll actually be experiencing seasonal change over here. It's happening already! When I walk to my morning classes and walk around at night, it's chilly. Yesterday afternoon, Hannah and I spent hours laying on an empty, grassy hill stuck outside the union. We had gotten coffee at Starbucks (for $1 with our FSU refill cups), talked, and had a grass fight to rival...other grass fights. I went to my film class, which was interesting enough until the last 20 minutes or so. I sat with a girl I met at orientation who's also going to try out for the film school. I also exchanged smiles with a cute tattooed guy who usually sits next to me and who also offered me a bite of his apple (I politely declined). I got back to my dorm with some takeout from Suwannee (the cafeteria next to my dorm), spent lots of time online, and then ignored my reading homework some more by showing Gaby almost every picture on my computer. The procrastination continued until 5 in the morning with me and Gaby sitting on our beds, completely slap happy and chatty. It was a good day.
Even today has been good, despite waking up at the time that I usually leave for class and then not being able to answer the question in my lit class about the chapter I had neglected to read. I just finished a stupid Excel assignment for my computer applications class and now I think I'm going to wake up Hannah, who is sleeping on my bed, to do some laundry. Later, we're getting some people together to make dinner and brownies and then watch the debate. I'm excited to see more of Palin's struggle to form sentences.
Oh, and I'm going to Orlando this weekend...again. I couldn't say no since Hannah is going and Nick might be there (he's been bummed about never seeing anyone). I think a lot of people are going. It'll be nice to see everyone at once! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | I should have posted a few days ago. I meant to, but lately I've managed to have lots of free time and to accomplish nothing. So, here goes. I had a bit of an ADVENTURE on Monday. It was crazy and the telling of it turned out to be very long, so, it's under ( THIS CRAZY CUT! ) | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| So, I had a weird experience this afternoon. I had a dentist appointment that got me out of bed at 8:30 and done by 10:30. I went to Quizno's and sat for a bit with my ipod and the book that is suggested reading for school, Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro. My dad has been bugging me to read it since I got back from Europe, mostly because he read it and now wants someone to talk to about it. Anyway, I went from Quizno's to Barnes & Noble to read the thing. I found one of the big squishy chairs pretty easily and sank in for the next four hours. The chairs were set up strangely though, differently anyway. They were in a line with two chairs facing each other, back to back with the next pair. So, I was sitting in my chair, facing someone else sitting about four feet away from me. Originally, there was a woman reading books with her little granddaughter, but since I was there so long, the chair housed a series of readers. It was a fun process. I felt almost like I was interviewing all of the people who ended up across from me and the seat was always filled. Once one person surrendered it, another one would swoop down and claim it fast.
The second guy to sit down was the most interesting, mostly because he was the second and the last guy to sit across from me. He was a bit older than middle aged. He looked like the golfing type. We were both reading, but when I would look up, he would be looking back at me. This was the case the next few times I glanced up from my book. It wasn't every time after that, but still, randomly, I'd find him staring at me. It was pretty creepy. He started to shift in his seat. He would sometimes touch his crotch or his inner thigh, then he'd spread his legs and sink into the chair. It could have been normal fidgeting from an old guy sitting in a chair for a long time, but in my head, it was dirty. My imagination took over. I started playing it out as a movie, with an older guy making subtle sexual gestures and hitting on a young girl. The worst was when I imagined the girl pulling the guy into a bathroom stall to see the satisfaction he'd have from the scandalous and unexpected sexual encounter. It was twisted. I changed gears and started to play out the movie from his point of view, imagining his guilt at being attracted to someone so young. Soon he was Bill Nighy and I was Kelly Macdonald (The Girl in the Cafe, anyone?) and we formed some sort of relationship which, like in the movie, was not really sexual. So, to sum up that whole part of it, I was kind of creeping myself out with this imaginary plot line. Still, the whole movie scenario in my head didn't last all that long. I was still engrossed in the book and about halfway through it. He got up when he finished his book, but he seemed to hesitate before he left. I saw him a few minutes later checking out a nearby shelf. He glanced over and then he was gone.
The next guy that came was a cute old man who sat down and was reading Pink Box. I suspected that it was something dirty from the bathing Asian women on the cover and then confirmed it online when I got home. Apparently, it's "the world's first look inside Japan's most elaborate fantasy clubs". He was just sitting there flipping through it so nonchalantly. It was bizarre. He was replaced with an average looking guy and then that guy was replaced by my "friend" from the beginning, the middle-aged man. He was back with two new books. It was about two hours since he was there the first time. Anyway, I continued to read. He acted the same as he had before. He stared at me every once in a while and he shifted in the chair. I got the impression a few times that he wanted to say something to me. He would lean forward to sip his coffee and look at me for a second. I smiled back a few times, but only slightly. When I was near the end of the book, he finally said, "you read almost the whole book today". I came back with "yeah" and returned the smile. I didn't know if he was going to strike up a conversation, but when he just looked at me smiling blankly, I returned to reading. About fifteen minutes later, I finished it. I was reading some of the back cover when he said, "must've been good". Again, I said, "yeah" and smiled. I didn't have any other response that made sense. I packed up my stuff, lingered for a bit, and then got up. I felt like I had to say some sort of goodbye. So, I came out with "Well, it was, uh, nice spending the afternoon with you." I thought it wouldl be kind of funny, but It was also very awkward and his, "have a good evening" sort of crossed paths with my awkward farewell. I couldn't help smiling at how strange the whole thing had been as I walked away. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
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| | So, guess what, f-list. I'm in Europe! I kind of forgot to mention that before June 23rd when I left. Hannah and I spent 5 days in Paris, then met Leah in Amsterdam. We were there for 2 days then moved on to Chloe's house in Strasbourg. We were there for 4 days and now we're in Frankfurt at Isi's house. We're going with Isi to Munich tomorrow and after a few days there, we're going to Verona, Italy. % days in Verona, one in Venice, and our last day is in Paris before we come home. So, there's my little itinerary. I'll be chock full of details and stories later, but I figured I'd give a little intro now. We're about to go to Isi's friend Julie's house for some karaoke. Fun fun. Hope everyone is enjoying summer! | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| This evening in the drive-through of Dairy Queen, which happens to be next to a classic car lot, Ian was talking about wanting a VW Van. He was talking about wanting it as a portable apartment and then came out with, "You know, it's like how I love Portable Spin-Art." It was hilarious.
Yesterday I went out with Jaxson again. He took me to Centennial Park for this drum circle that goes on every Saturday night. We got there an no one was there so we walked around until a scruffy old man arrived with a couple of big African drum sets. We walked some more and when we came back there were more people there. Jaxson had brought his drum and the guy passed out some maracas and other little instruments. We sounded pretty good until some young guys came with an electric guitar and a drum kit, which messed with the vibe a little bit. Jaxson was pretty awesome with the drums. We left and then went to the movies. We saw Speed Racer, which turned out to be a lot cooler than we were expecting. The style and the effects were pretty kickass. Anyway, he dropped me off around 1:30. I had a nice time.
Oh, and today, I went with the family to see The Visitor, a small movie at the Bonita theater, which has become sort of artsy. It was a great movie about an older man who forms a connection with some illegal immigrants from Syria. Surprisingly enough, there was lots of African drumming and a successful drum circle. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | So, my grandma is in the hospital. I don't think it's that bad, but tonight at Ileane and Charlie's for passover, before the sedar, she fell from a rolling office chair. Charlie had her propped up and the guys got together to lift her, but she was too scared. We called 911 and the EMS guys came immediately. She couldn't move her left leg and they guessed that she'd dislocated her hip. Turns out, as we found out later from my dad who went with her to the hospital, that she fractured her hip and she needs surgery. I think that's set to happen on Monday. So, really, there's not much damage, BUT she might have to stay with us for a few months. MONTHS. Now, my grandma is mildly insane and pretty obnoxious so that would be interesting. I mean, I'm happy to do whatever needs to be done to get her better, but there is no doubt in my mind (or anyone's that was there tonight) that she'll be milking this thing for all it's worth. I guess we'll have to wait and see. Boy, that'd be a crazy few months. The hospital is right next to my school though so I'll be able to visit her on Monday after school. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| My grandma has arrived in town for Passover. I guess that's a strange way to phrase that since Ian and I drove to West Palm to pick her up last night. It was an interesting trip. I drove a total of about 10 hours yesterday.
Ian HAD to go to Disney to ride Tower of Terror, which is an obsession interest of his. We went for a few hours then drove to West Palm. We got to my grandma's house, where we "fixed" her computer (or just deleted some faulty emails, but whatever) and was introduced to her watch dogs, which are really just two tiny stuffed dogs that she's placed facing her front door. Before we left, she also peaked into her fridge and said, "now you stay well until I get back" to all of the food in there. The woman is 93 years old, btw, and almost perfectly healthy. Oh, and she's like half the height of a normal person.
She took us to a Chinese Super Buffet for dinner, or as she called it, "a poor man's paradise where the Mexicans and Guatemalans can feed all of their kids". She's not really racist though; I'd say she's more blunt than anything. Though there was one time at that same buffet a few years ago that she asked the Chinese woman working there if she could understand English when my grandma was pointing out that the crab legs weren't fresh. She asked the question after the woman had replied with "yes, they are", but what can you do? Anyway, at dinner she ended up telling Ian and me about her first time smoking pot (the drug use topic stemmed from Juno and teenage pregnancy, leading to other problems that teenagers get involved in). She was apparently 62 years old and on a date with some guy. He wanted to take her onto his yacht, she refused to go alone, so he invited some of his family. The next thing she knew they were on the deck passing a "cigarette". She thought, "What the hell kind of cheap people am I with who can't afford their own cigarettes" and then realized that it was, in fact, a joint. When it came to her, she "took a puff. Oh, I mean a hit, excuse me" and then decided it wasn't for her because it made her hungry and a woman of her age needed to stay as slender as possible.
The drive home was pretty quiet until later on when she and I got on the topic of language. We talked about the usage of the word fuck and how she uses it and it just fits. Then we talked about how the usages of the words bitch and slut have become playful a lot of the time. She said that she couldn't use bitch that way because "I've known some real bitches and they're horrible and some people are just bitches, but I can use it as an adjective because there's no other way to say that someone's being bitchy". Oh, and then we moved on to jerk and jerk off. She told me a story about the first time she used "jerk off". She told some stupid guy that she worked with to "go jerk off in a corner somewhere" and then quit the job. Now, whenever she says anything like "shit" or "fuck" she interrupts her story to say something like, "see, there's one way to use it".
The woman is insane and she'll probably drive me up the wall soon, but she's also pretty hilarious. I'm kind of excited for my friends to meet her on Sunday when they come over for Passover. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | No matter who ended things or what's happened since, seeing pictures of an ex-boyfriend with his now girlfriend of some-long-period-of-time is rough. It's making my stomach turn a little bit. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| A friend of the family and Ian's godfather, Nathan, died this weekend. He's been sick for a while, but it was an unexpected pronouncement from the doctor that it could be any day. Nathan was part of "Laurie and Nathan". They have no kids of their own so Laurie used to love to take me and Ian out to museums and shows and other little kid events. They were a big part of my childhood, but I've only seen them a handful of times since then, since we moved. My parents just happened to be in the city so they're with Laurie now. I think Nathan being gone would hit me more if I was in their apartment or just with them. Every time I hear that someone has died, a little clip of them talking pops into my head and then I think, "He's never going to talk again. He doesn't even exist anymore."
On a lighter note, my whole family has gotten into this show on HBO called In Treatment. It's really fascinating. Each episode documents the therapy session of a patient. It's all fake and Gabriel Byrne is the therapist. The coolest part is that it airs five days a week and each day has its own character. So, it works like the schedule of a real therapist. Monday at 9:30 is Laura. She's my favorite. She's this young, hot woman who speaks very directly and is in love with the therapist, Paul. Each episode since she's admitted it is more and more interesting. She is convinced that he is attracted to her and even loves her back. It's crazy to watch. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Oh, man. Freaks and Geeks. I am going all sorts of crazy over that show right now. I've been a fan since I saw a bunch of episodes at Christina's a few years ago, but I got the series for Chanukah this year and we have since been reintroduced. During break I broke in the first few discs with my parents, who loved it, too. Friday I brought the show in to SOFA because I find it interesting to talk about and there was some serious lack of planning. Anyway, I got some of my friends into it there and then last night we all went a little freaky and geeky (heh heh heh...oh gawd). We went to Blair's and eventually put in an episode. One episode turned into two and then that turned into...most of the series. I'm now going nuts. I am so in love with that show. Seriously, this morning I was still feeling the awkwardness of Nick and Lindsay's failed-but-not-really relationship. It was so funny. We watched a few episodes and then I said that we didn't have to watch anymore, but Leah jumped in with "Put in the next episode already!" and then we stayed up until 4:30 watching it.
Ooh! I also have finally managed to get videos onto my iPod. I've had it for almost a year and now I finally get to watch some movies on the thing. I also downloaded Juno last night, which is on there, too. XD | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| I am wearing one too many sweaters for me to be shivering as much as I am right now.
I've gone to the movies five times in the last week and one of those times I saw two movies. I've seen Juno twice and I want to take Leah to see it as soon as possible. I've also watched Knocked Up twice and two discs of Freaks and Geeks. This might just sound weird or obsessive, but knowing myself I can say that something is up. Movies are my comfort and right now I feel like watching a lot of movies. I don't know what it is, but I feel weird. Things are changing and I don't know if I'm ready.
Good news: I painstakingly got my music on my [sorta]new computer.
Edit: I just got home from seeing Charlie Wilson's War. Hah! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| The kittens are finally named, set in stone. For the longest time, the little scared one was Clementine, but she is now Phoebe. Oh! Both are girls. The bouncier one is Reggie (in a way a nod to my mom's love of Reggae, which she wanted to name her). They're all cute and playful and they bite each others faces. So sweet haha.
Yesterday was Ian's birthday. We made plans to go to the movies in formal wear after school. We brought clothes in our car, changed in Publix after school, and then went to Moe's for lunch. The group consisted of me, Ian, Leah, Rose, Hannah, Curtiss, and Blair. After lunch we went to Belltower and saw Across the Universe. Ian, Hannah, and I had already seen it, but we were good to see it again. We all liked it, but didn't love it. The second time though, we were all gaga. With less expectation for the storyline, the whole film came together more for me. Now I'm even more excited to get the soundtrack. It still wasn't the best thing I've ever seen, but it was pretty great. I've also decided that Jim Sturgess is my ideal man. IDEAL. Ugh, just wonderful. I even love his mullet. Anyway, yesterday was just a lot of fun. We went to Mimi's later on for dessert and coffee around 10.
This morning Leah and I woke up at 5:30 to go walking to prep for our half marathon in February. We walked 10 fucking miles in 3 hours. It got pretty rough by the end, but it wasn't so bad overall. We got some planning of our Eurotrip done and it was great for the first half when the sun wasn't up. I'm blistered and anticipating tomorrow's aches, but I'm pretty proud of myself, of us.
And now the family is at Ileane and Charlie's. We had Ian's birthday dinner at Edo and coffee here. I'm so stuffed, but today was very relaxing. I better hold on to this feeling because the next week and weekend are going to be hell (extended essay, world lit paper, history paper, art book, art work, french oral, and history test. kill me now). | | comments: Leave a comment |
| We have two new kittens! TWO!
Hannah's had a stray cat living on her porch for a long time. Soon "Stray Kitty" became "Preggo Kitty" and now she's "Mama Kitty". She had three babies. One died a few days ago out of nowhere and the other two came home with us today. The plan to take one was in the works for a few weeks. We went to Hannah's today to pick it up, but we decided at the very last second that we couldn't leave that last kitten (who is tiny and scared of everything!). We took them both and surprised my dad with two instead of one when we got home. Evie is terrified of them. I was holding her when she saw them; she tensed up and wouldn't stop vibrating. She still won't go near them. They were hiding in the bathroom and now they're under the couch. They're not too scared though. They're grey and stripey. Beyond cute.
As for names, there's no way to tell as of now if they're boys or girls. We have a plan though. If one is a boy and the other is a girl, they will be Rufus and Clementine. If they're both boys or both girls, one will be either Rufus or Clementine and the other will be Toaster. Okay, now let me explain that part of it. Toaster came about yesterday when we were driving with Leah. Her grandma joked a long time ago that she would name her tiny dog Refridgerator. We harped on this idea and started brainstorming other appliances. We like the quirkiness of naming an animal after an object. I tried to push them away from this idea, but today at Hannah's, Leah referred to the scared kitten as "the brave little Toaster" and I had to give in. So, there you go.
Pictures to come! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| My work load has gone down, thank god. I'm in a good spot. I have to have at least 1300 words done of my extended essay by Friday, when I have a meeting with Pollard (scaaaaary, but she's really very nice. I know she'll help, but still. Scary). I've been getting more sleep. Not a ton, but more. I feel rested at least. I've also been watching a lot of Ignmar Bergman and Woody Allen to prepare for my essay. Yesterday I watched Stardust Memories, Wild Strawberries, and Husbands and Wives. I'm liking Bergamn more as I see more of his work. It grows on you.
Friday after school, I went to lunch with Leah, Rose, and Ian. We had Amy's van so we picked up Blair, then Curtiss, and then went to Hannah's (ill with the mono). We met Adam at Mimi's for dinner/coffee/dessert and then walked around Belltower, which I haven't done in a looong time. We chilled in Barnes & Noble for a while. Leah and Rose had to get home by 11 so they left and the rest of us decided to see a movie. Superbad. I loved it. It wasn't my favorite Apatow-gang project, but it was hilarious nonetheless. I was probably the loudest and most obnoxious laugher in the audience, but I was in that sort of mood. Overall, very good day.
I've also been shifting my plans for college, a major, my future. I think I want to go into psychology. I'd like to be a therapist really. I love film, but techincally, I'm not sure that I'm cut out to make them, for a living at least. I'm not belittling my love for film. That is the same, as is my passion for being a filmmaker, but I could easily take that on as a hobby. That's always been my plan for painting. Why not film? Therapy seems more practical and I've found that I'm more excited about the prospect of it as a career. I think my favorite part about films is the characters anyway. I love writing for the same reason. Even in HL Art, my basic theme is character studies. I overanalyze my own problems so much. I think I'd be well suited to analyze those of other people. Human thoughts and relationships interest me more than anything else. I don't think I could get bored with it and, if one day I do, I can always turn to art. For the first time in a long time, I'm excited about the real world (aside from living sans parents, being in another city, having independence, and, you know, eating cake for breakfast). | | comments: 9 comments or Leave a comment |
| I am so worn out. I'm just completely exhausted. I have spent every single day doing homework since Saturday. I've honestly never spent so much time actually doing my homework. All weekend I was working and every day after school I've come home and worked until about two in the morning. Then I have to wake up at 5 to get to school. It's ridiculous. It's not that I'm given an enormous amount of homework everyday; I just saved all of my summer work till the very end. I'm still scrambling to get it all done. Luckily, my teachers have all been forgiving. Most people haven't gotten everything in it. Ugh, I'm just numb right now. I still like school. I'm not even that angry or upset about all of this work. I'm just doing it. Numb.
Everything is weird right now. Everything is different. Half of my close friends don't go to my school, which I never thought much about. Hannah is sick and hasn't been at school. Blair isn't in any of my classes or my lunch shift. I have no classes with Leah. Still, it's okay, but I feel far away from everything. Maybe it's The Stranger.
I don't know how to do all of this work. I don't know how to break up with a best friend. I don't know how to handle this change. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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